how are you?

i begin to think everything is ok. and i figured it all out.

then the lump in my throat starts to grow.

my eyes water up.

and i just start to think.

my doubts start to pile up, then, like waves, crash upon themselves.

i dont want to be left alone with my thoughts anymore. but other human contact seems so very distant. soon, i know, the waves will surround me, swirling, bashing, pounding me with the bitter thoughts. and i sputter in the depthless current, unsure of the obstacles ahead.

and thats how it feels right now.

before - after

the i to my computer is crapping out. - 11.16.2004

do i really want to go home- wait, am i already there? - 10.18.2004

camp songs in the background for this. - 09.07.2004

can we braid eachothers hair tonite!?! - 06.08.2004

its been two minutes since i found out... - 06.01.2004